Finally back to work

[capnzebbie]

I'm going back to work Monday. Finally. I can't believe I've been off work for two full months. I had my surgery on August 2nd, and I'm going back to work on October 4th. I'm absolutely having panic attacks about it, though. My god! They're going to expect me to remember how to do my job! I drove myself into town for the first time on Friday and I barely remembered how to drive; my job it much more complicated.

Not only have I been off for two months, I'm going back into a slightly different position. My supervisor called me on Thursday and told me that one of the other supervisors was about to call me and offer me the Lead position on her team, and if I want to remain a Lead I should say yes. There are four leads right now; one is moving to a different department, two are being asked to step down, and then there's me. I'm the newest lead, and they want me to stay lead because they think I'm really good at the job, which is nice considering that I was only in the position for two months before I had to leave for the surgery. So anyway, I'm freaking out. This supervisor I'm going to be working for would be my last choice for supervisor, but I have to work for her to keep my position and I like my position. So there you go.

I'm sure everything will be fine, but the panic attacks are pretty upsetting. I just need to get back in there and do it. I know I'll feel better after the first couple of days back. I'm freaking out unnecessarily (as usual). I also need to remember that in this company nothing stays for long, everything is always changing, sometimes for the worse (like now), but sometimes for the better.

I'm doing lots of deep breathing.

Comments

[garryowen.livejournal.com]

Oh, hey. I was wondering about you.

Wow. I didn't realize you'd been off work for so long! Pshaw. I have gone back to jobs after four months away and it's easy to pick everything up again. I'm sure you'll be JUST FINE. And they wouldn't have offered you the lead if they didn't think you deserved it and could do it.

You'll be awesome!

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the encouragement! :) I know I just need to get past the first day back. God, I hate panic attacks. And this is all over a place at which I've been working for nearly four years. I'll let you know how I feel in couple of days.

[femme-fire.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}}
I'm sure that come Monday you'll be fine :)

I understand what you're saying about the panic attacks and nerves :( And yes,the panic attacks can be very upsetting. *Knock on wood* I haven't had one in about a year.

Sending positive thoughts :)

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs back}}} Thank you for the positive thoughts! :) I'm sure I'll be fine after the first couple of days, but right now the adrenaline surges are killing me. I just worry too much. I'll post in a couple of days with an update on my mental state after being back at work. *more deep breaths*

[prim-rose-etta.livejournal.com]

Hey, I couldn't post in response to your question of where the Sorority Boys icon came from, so I came here directly...

I'm bad...I snagged the full sized pic somewhere a few months ago, resized it and have been using it since....and I have forgotten where I got it, and only the last 6 weeks have I begun getting all organized by inserting the source name into the save as-name.

I'm sorry I can't give proper credit, and I'm sorry I can't assist!

:0(

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Thanks for trying! If you should ever run across it again keep me in mind. It just cracks me up because MR looks like he has something else on his mind entirely while he's being groped, and I'm hearing the bearded guy say, "I'm just adjusting your breasts," like Steve Martin in Dead Men Don't Wear Plaid. :)

[prim-rose-etta.livejournal.com]

{*snort*}
Exactly! haha, god, haven't thought about DMDWP is so long! hahhaah

Will do!

the dvd

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

I got a reply from astrea9562 telling me that the pic is from the dvd, so I ran right over to amazon.com and ordered it. She said it's worth it just for the behind-the-scenes stuff, so I'm really looking forward to it. :)