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Finally back to work
Oct. 2nd, 2004 08:40 pmI'm going back to work Monday. Finally. I can't believe I've been off work for two full months. I had my surgery on August 2nd, and I'm going back to work on October 4th. I'm absolutely having panic attacks about it, though. My god! They're going to expect me to remember how to do my job! I drove myself into town for the first time on Friday and I barely remembered how to drive; my job it much more complicated.
Not only have I been off for two months, I'm going back into a slightly different position. My supervisor called me on Thursday and told me that one of the other supervisors was about to call me and offer me the Lead position on her team, and if I want to remain a Lead I should say yes. There are four leads right now; one is moving to a different department, two are being asked to step down, and then there's me. I'm the newest lead, and they want me to stay lead because they think I'm really good at the job, which is nice considering that I was only in the position for two months before I had to leave for the surgery. So anyway, I'm freaking out. This supervisor I'm going to be working for would be my last choice for supervisor, but I have to work for her to keep my position and I like my position. So there you go.
I'm sure everything will be fine, but the panic attacks are pretty upsetting. I just need to get back in there and do it. I know I'll feel better after the first couple of days back. I'm freaking out unnecessarily (as usual). I also need to remember that in this company nothing stays for long, everything is always changing, sometimes for the worse (like now), but sometimes for the better.
I'm doing lots of deep breathing.
Not only have I been off for two months, I'm going back into a slightly different position. My supervisor called me on Thursday and told me that one of the other supervisors was about to call me and offer me the Lead position on her team, and if I want to remain a Lead I should say yes. There are four leads right now; one is moving to a different department, two are being asked to step down, and then there's me. I'm the newest lead, and they want me to stay lead because they think I'm really good at the job, which is nice considering that I was only in the position for two months before I had to leave for the surgery. So anyway, I'm freaking out. This supervisor I'm going to be working for would be my last choice for supervisor, but I have to work for her to keep my position and I like my position. So there you go.
I'm sure everything will be fine, but the panic attacks are pretty upsetting. I just need to get back in there and do it. I know I'll feel better after the first couple of days back. I'm freaking out unnecessarily (as usual). I also need to remember that in this company nothing stays for long, everything is always changing, sometimes for the worse (like now), but sometimes for the better.
I'm doing lots of deep breathing.
