it's been a while

[capnzebbie]

Holy cow! Someone just linked to my LJ! I guess I should post something. I didn't realize it had been so long. I've been a little busy working overtime and making life-changing decisions.

I decided to cancel my gastric bypass. I've managed to snap out of the state of extreme panic I've been in for the past few months. When I started thinking about having the surgery, I had just had three things happen with my health at about the same time, and it completely freaked me out. I now realize, though, that I don't really have a bunch of new things wrong with me; I've just started dealing with the things that have been wrong with me for a while. I also realized that it is not a good thing to make a decision about major, life-changing surgery from a place of fear. So, I'm giving low-carb and exercise another try.

My family supports my decision. Of course, they supported the decision to have surgery also. Whatever choices I make they're all pretty cool with. They're just happier about supporting my decision to not have the surgery.

It's weird, though. One of my co-workers is upset with me for canceling. She applied to have the surgery and was turned down because she isn't unhealthy enough for it. Now she acts like I won the lottery and turned down the prize. And here I'm envying her a little for having options. Oh well.

I'll try to be more dedicated about posting in the future.

Comments

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Hi! Welcome to my LJ! I'm happy with my decision to pass on the surgery and give low carb and exercise another try, but I know I've got a long road ahead. I realize, though, that even if I had had the surgery I'd still have that same long road, but it would have a lot of pain at the beginning and a scar at the end. The surgery is simply a behavior modification tool, one that's too drastic for me. Thanks for the positive vibes!