help

[capnzebbie]

Would someone please tell me that I'm not worthless because I don't have any children and I'm 47 years old?

Would someone please tell me that I'm not crazy to think I still might possibly have a child even though I'm 47 years old?

And would someone please tell me that it's okay to still be ambivalent about this?

I'm looking at this website and this website and I'm very unhappy.

My mother is unhappy because she only has one grandchild. She wanted to have a lot of them. It's a shame that parents can't control that. *sigh* I've never really wanted to have children, but every time she talks about this I feel guilty. And I know I shouldn't. It's a shame that I can't control that.

I haven't wasted my life. But right now I just can't think of anything I've done.

It's entirely possible that I will continue to be ambivalent about this until my uterus falls out from disuse.

Comments

[dominik.livejournal.com]

You're not worthless, you're not crazy, and it's ok to be ambivalent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There. :)

It's not your mother's decision.

And also, *hugs*.

You had a birthday, didn't you? I keep missing these things :(

[capnzebbie.livejournal.com]

Thanks, dk! I appreciate the affirmations and validations! :)

And yes, I just turned 47--lol! I miss my flist BDays too--I just discovered that my userinfo page tells me the birthdays, so I'm going to try to do better.

*hugs back*